Keep moving on

At the end of last year, I have broken with my ex bf. Honestly, I really really cant believe that’s over. I ve been depend on him so much, cause there are many things that we have trought together. i have wished that he is last boy for me, but who knows?

Although we aren’t banded again, we was still close and keep and touch each other. But, in half of April, there was a problem that made me to decide to not contact him anymore. Cause, its really hurt me. I ve told him already about it. Finally, I must set out for the umpteenth time. Is it difficult? Actually YESSSSS “so loudly”.  Life is sometimes up and sometimes down. And now, I must be strong and set my mind to think “yaudah sih”. Seems like my lecturer’s quote, she told that women has 9 senses an 1 logic, otherwise men has 1 sense and 9 logics. This is difference character between men and women.  Women always doing something by her senses, otherwise men always doing something by his logics. If women has problem, she always think it countinously and crying a lot. Then, if men has problem, he always let it go and don’t care to much what happened in tomorrow. And now, I will set my mind like ‘men’s character”.

I've realized that, wheel is always spinning. As a human, we are not always on top side, but sometimes on bottom side. It is not a long time, we on ‘save zone’. Sometimes, we on ‘unsave zone’ This is depend on the type of the problem and how to react it. Importantly, we must believe that Allah is see infinite, hear infinite, fair infinite and of course Allah is infinite everything. Allah is know more what we need than us. Allah will answer our questions and needs. So, remembering Allah in everywhere and everytime, so Allah will remember us too. I am sure that it will a response what we do in past because everything we do always give another respons. If we doing good something, we will get a good response too. Otherwise, if we doing bad something, we will get a bad respons too.

Afterall, I can take wisdom of all  the things that I ve been trought. There are much pain, tears and heartbreak that I ve taken, I hope, I  became stronger, braver,  and wiser women. I don’t regret what happened to me. Even, I  wanna thankfull for him, because of him I learn much things. I learning many thing, such like how to love someone without exceeding our love for God and how to sincere and more patient to all that was happened. These are difficult to learn and to express, but I ve to do. I have many friends that makes me smile, laugh, I have many things to do, I have many reason to forget the pain, and I have many ways to make an crazy things ad my world colourfull :D

Thank to the past for a better future. Thanks for you. Thanks for everything. Love you a lot my fams, my lovely friends. Thank you so much, Love you a lot. And of course, Love you Allah :)

I ve got song to burn my spirit an let my tears left in past. Here we go

KEEP PRAYING, KEEP STRUGGLING   J J