January 10th

I wish, you still alive
I wish, you still seat next to me
I wish, you still put your hand in my head
I wish, you still hug me
I wish, you still keep me from another naughty child
I wish, you still teach me how to recitation
I wish, you always holding my hands
I wish, i would make you proud of me
I wish, you came to my graduation 1,5 years ago
I wish, you would open the door when i come home
I wish, i would deserve special meal for you
I wish, i would like to put a smile on your face everyday
I wish, there was you in our family photo
I wish, there was you in Mas Anash's wedding
I wish, there was you in Mas Nur's wedding
I wish, there was you in my future wedding
I wish, you would decide who is my Imam
I wish, you would see your first granddaughter, Kimya Ayla Zayana
I wish, i still hear your tunable voice, recitation, azan and iqomat
I wish, you know that you is my precious thing in my Life
I wish you were here, Ayah

I know, Allah love you so much than us
I know, Allah who knows everything

And now is January 10th, its gonna be your birthday :)
I still remember everything when you alive
When you pickaback me on your back
When you scold me
When you accompany me to buy my new game
When you accompany me playing tamiya
When climbed clove tree together
When plucked cloves
When sweeped garden together
When laugh togehter
When I gave simply surprise for your birthday

I always be your little daughter
I always be your maudlin daughter

Insya Allah, I always keep my pray for you
I hope, Allah put you in better place
I hope, Allah accepted your kindness and practices
I hope, Allah remove your faults
I hope, Allah avoiding you from punishment of the grave
I hope, Allah avoiding you from defamation of Dajjal
I hope, Allah bringing us back in Jannah
I hope, Allah give his blessing in Mahsyr

If I could turn back time rewind, I will say that I always love you so much, Ayah :)

KEEP PRAYING, KEEP STRUGGLING  J J